completely uncalled for

Seriously?

I know you’re fucking piss-poor tired but hey, it was your choice to party until 3 in the freaking morning.

3 AM.

God, even I was asleep by then!

WHY THE FRICK ARE YOU TAKING IT OUT ME

WHY THE FRICK

SERIOUSLY

THE ENTIRE FUCKING DAY

YOU WERE JUST

YELL LECTURE LECTURE YELL

AND YOU, YOU BASTARD

THAT WAS NOT APPROPRIATE

NOT YOUR CONVERSATION

JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP GODDAMNIT YOUR COMMENTS ARE BEYOND THE LEVELS OF MINE, EVEN

-insert litany Tony-swears here-

At the moment (in which I am somewhat out of my mind) I just want to a) punch you in the nose and break it b) slit your throat c) stab you in the heart or d) chop your hair off with the kitchen cleaver.

LEAVE ME ALONE AND DON’T TAKE OUT YOUR ANGER AND TIREDNESS AND PISSED-OFF MOOD AND ARGHGHGHGH ON OTHERS WHEN YOU HAVE HAD LITTLE TO NO SLEEP.

THANK YOU.

VERY MUCH.

GOOD FREAKING NIGHT TO YOU TOO.

love or perish

I spent

a very long time trying to think of a moderately appropriate title for this blogpost.

About 15 minutes.

That’s, what, 14 minutes longer than I should have?

But bear with me.

I want you to stop for a moment and just focus on this little bit, okay? Especially my fellow 7G Huisman graduates.

…

Today, I went shopping with a childhood (? xD) friend, one I haven’t seen for a while.

We went to Indigo, to HMV, and I got a few presents from her for my birthday. Yay! Thanks, Jules. Ever After and Waking Up are rocking on my CD player right now, and I just finished a book.

Never, ever, play the second half of Waking Up (the album, but just the song itself would do fine) by One Republic and read Tuesdays with Morrie at the same time if there is no purpose.

Listen to it and read with a purpose. Always listen and read it (or just read, really).

Know, acknowledge, and accept, embrace, even, that you are going to cry and your heart is going to be in little shredded smithereens by the time you get to page 76 or something and the music is on repeat.

(I had tears by page 44, by the way, because it was all “feck shiz I remember this ohgod no no no don’t no aghhhh my heart”.)

Someday soon, I just want to sit down with you guys on a nice, sunny Tuesday and just read this aloud. Never mind that you’re going to see me cry and fairly wail by the time we near the end, I just want to read it to you guys, with you guys.

I love you. There’s no time like the present.

/dieu, I lost my train of thought

freedom~

I’M DONE

EFF THIS SHIZ

–

On the other hand, there is a problem with my switching of courses due to the fact that SOMEONE SNATCHED MY SEAT THE DAY AFTER I GET MY FORM. SERIOUSLY. I TOOK SO LONG TO GET THE SIGNATURE AND YOU. TAKE. MY. SEAT.

-groan-

I’ma see if I can get it back.

On the other hand…

OUTING TOMORROW

G’LUCK WITH SATs, JULES

AND SEE YOU AT INDIGO. RAWR.

waiting for tomorrow

easy peasy

lemon squeezy

but going to fail

the chemistry

–

Poetry at its finest. xDDD

YEAH SO THE PHYSICAL GEOGRAPHY EXAM WAS A BREEZE

BUT I’M SO GOING TO BOMB CHEM NOW

/needs to start studying again

/does not want to

exams

this is the part where I give up

eff you heta

and damn myself for being a fool

hold on tightly,

and please,

don’t let go

Copy-paste

Just because I don’t talk to you

philjayr:

Doesn’t mean I don’t think about you. Doesn’t mean I don’t check up on you. Doesn’t mean I don’t worry and wonder about how you are doing. Doesn’t mean I don’t care about you anymore.

(via kitkatmreow)

Via tumblr.

–

Not that this really applies to anything anymore. xDDD

one last night

and so its Friday evening

the night before

and its about time I started this

aura restored

I’ve collected some dues

and paid my debts

so just grant me one last wish

before the coming of deaths

just one last Fifth evening

I was born on a Fourth

and by tomorrow morning

I hope there’s still more

with one year of risk

up ahead of me, walking next to me

hold me if such a passing

could ever occur

say, I know

its all divination and disbelief

but twas three, four years ago

I made this prophecy

so spare me your doubt

and don’t disagree

because you never know in this world

just let me, be me

and I’m sitting here, at this desk

contemplating what to write

a last testament

the last word

grant what to who I should

and so its Friday evening

before a year starts anew

let me finish my will

and give me, to you

find me at my desk

find me on the road

find me in my bed

find me in the halls I once roamed

give your blessings, please, let me go

you never know, you never know

just follow through with my last wishes

and understand (accept) my throes

its not to be morbid

to think not past the year

but hey if it works

then you are still who I will always hold dear

and one by one and two by two

bless you if you tear, hold you if you care

all the times a-ticking

and I want you to know

that it would be love, that keeps me here

love one might never know

oh, why is it

so cold

so cold

so cold