this makes sense now

Suddenly, with course selection coming up (everything done and stamped by Friday), things make more sense.

I’m getting an idea of what I would like (to do).

Not a job per say, but … program, I guess, to study in university.

Also, university.

I think I might drop the entire America and England idea (lol right there I like that. also never really shipped in the first place but hey this is not the actual topic), because for me, that might be aiming too high, and really, I’m tired.

I’m tired.

I’m really freaking tired.

So, Canada. I love you. Happy Valentine’s Day. ❤

I want to make this happen.

I don’t know what would happen if I don’t … make this work, you know?

Achieve higher. Believe. Try your goddamn best.

But damnit, its hard.

You have no idea how painful that measly 86 looks on my report card right now (and to think we’re getting it on Thursday).

I can’t stand it.

It needs to be higher.

I will improve for this semester and all its work and next year. I fecking better.

And I know this is a lot about me…

But I can’t seem to understand anything else. My head is all fuzzy from worrying about the future, and I’m desperately trying to squeeze in everything else in the world beside it all.

The want of more.

Ugh.

/what will happen if things don’t go as planned?/

/as imagined?/

/as hoped?/

/you better have a bloody good backup./

So. Lack of pictures much?

And on a pic blog, too.

But, you know me. Do you? xD

Back home, but jumped straight into volunteering. I’ve an idea for school, but I need to some fast responses…. though I don’t think that many people would be interested in it with me at the head. I’m not known for my long-term ideas.

That being said, I still think I’m going to try at the end of this month. Or, well, actually, two ideas. But… you get to find out later. xD

Pictures – when I bring myself to remember how to do it on here. I might resort to Picasa or flickr or something. Meh. What do you think? -hasn’t touched flickr in years-

I’ve Europe-trip pics, US-uni-trip pics, and… boredom pics. xD Also, pictures from WAY LONG BEFORE.

America – University Trip

Going to the big ones. xD Area is around Boston, so that should cover it. Also, Finger Lakes (camping).

Pictures will be posted here, hopefully. I’ve been real bad with the photography lately, haven’t I?

Anyways, nothing from the Europe trip here yet because dad hasn’t gotten his London pics onto the computer yet – I want to do this in chronological order, and since I lost almost all my London pics, I’m waiting.

See you all in a week (if I don’t have internet during the trip). Also, volunteering when I come back, so. xD

(University of) Waterloo

I don’t have that much information on it (that was not the point of this post), but a little tidbit fact for you is that my family used to own a restaurant near the campus. Here’s a pic:

I miss eating peanutbutter-sugar sandwiches...

Ahh, the life as a 2nd to 3rd Grader…

Photo Taken: September 27th, 2009.

Maybe I’ll consider this uni when my brain is not like scrambled eggs (lol Night, remember?). Its one of the few places in my heart, nyeh? And for the lolz:

Cropped, for the lack of anything to say.

I was bored. You can tell, right?

Photo Taken: September 27th, 2009.

I'ma go Slytherin nao, 'kay?

As you can tell, modified (on the camera).

Photo Taken: September 27th, 2009.